A few photos of the garden to help get a SPRING IN YOUR STEP………..

I use to collect aluminum buckets and watering cans…………..

They “SPOKE TO ME”.

I have STOPPED COLLECTING ANYTHING!

NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD SAY THOSE WORDS!

A beautiful peony.

Name started with a SHIRO………I think.

IT IS A LONG NAME.

THE TAG BLEW AWAY in one of our torrential rainstorms, so uncommon to us in Northern California!

A PROJECT IS UNDERWAY IN MY BACKYARD.

IT REQUIRED NEW DIRT AND A SLIDE TO GET THE DIRT IN PLACE!

Dirt is loaded in a wheelbarrow.Trotted across the pebbles to THE SLIDE.

TOP SOIL BEING LOWERED TO MAN IN KNEE HIGH BOOTS!

THAT IS WATER HE IS STANDING IN TO GET THE JOB COMPLETED!

SLIDE MADE BY YOURS TRUELY;

THE ITALIAN AND THESE HARD WORKING MEN.

SHE WANTED TO PEEK INSIDE!

NOTE THE GRIP!

PEEKING!

Remind you of YOURSELF at that age?

I can recall having a fascination with Daffodils.

The new beds to hold our vegetables and lettuce.The Italian is getting ready to RETIRE and NEEDS plenty to do!He is a MAN that does not play golf nor sit and watch sports!Nor does he drink………like so many do!

I may turn into THE DRINKER having him under foot all day and all night!

His exuberance exhausts me just by watching HIM!

The GREEN Behind the bins are SHASTA DAISIES.

They will grow to four feet in height.

I planted them years ago and never watered them or hooked up irrigation.

I recommend these BEAUTIES!

I have clay soil as well so not ideal LIVING situation!

The other day I had the good fortune to see this guy smelling the LEMON BALM.At first I thought he was EATING it!Then I realized he was SMELLING IT………Lemon Balm is very fragrant and is good as a TEA.He did swipe a FIG LEAF off the FIG TREE in front of him which I scolded him and he got the message.Only to find BETTY the next day swiping and EATING an even bigger LEAF!

MONKEY SEE MONKEY DO!

Of course that was AFTER one of her many NAPS………..

SHE TAKES AFTER ME!

I still NAP DAILY.

I donot fight it anymore.

This is ALWAYS a JOY in my WHITE and YELLOW Garden.

BACOPA is the name.

Here is the LEMON BALM I mentioned the animals smelling and eating.

(A ROGUE TULIP……..NOT MY COLOR for the garden!)

But isn’t SHE GORGEOUS!

The lemon balm self seeds so it SPREADS, which I ADORE!

I’m a MESSY PERSON if you haven’t picked up on that yet!

MESSY is MAGICAL in my little world.

No trim and tidy boarders for me………I would THRIVE in a MEADOW!

STAG HORN FERN we recently acquired.

I have a good BOOK read for you called UN-WORTHY

The woman who wrote the book worked for MICROSOFT.She ended up at the executive level in Washington from a small town in Iowa!SO, never say NEVER………….her story is fascinating and a very good read.I enjoyed the book VERY MUCH and went as far as writing a review for AMAZON.Do you know they refused to print my REVIEW as I used the word IOWA in the summary!Mind you IOWA is all OVER the INSIDE of the book…………..we have a problem with this A1 or whoever is deciding what gets PUBLISHED!A BIG PROBLEM as MY review said how much I enjoyed the book and it had come recommended to me so I wanted to let the author know that.I REALLY ENJOYED THIS BOOK!Easy read.A true life story.Growing up the youngest of four.A NUN changed the course of her LIFE!

Which brings me to INSTAGRAM or should I say META?

Lately I have had three of my comments not published there!

Let me show you what I was sent.

Of course there is NO WAY to talk to a person or even COMPLAIN and point out in fact they are WRONG!They think I want LIKES from my comment.I comment with enthusiasm and Love and am truly HONEST.My followers know me even if they have NEVER met me!

This was in response to a INTERIOR DECORATOR in England who was commenting on her landscape man getting his “STEPS” in that day as they had a GAZILLION topiary’s delivered from Holland so he had his work cut out for himself.

The Darling was about LANDSCAPE KID!

WHAT YOU HAVE UP YOUR SLEEVE meant she was not telling us yet what the plan was but would later when the project is completed.

AND the rest I HOPE makes sense to ALL OF YOU!

Read below WHAT HAPPENED!

ME GETTING LIKES<FOLLOWS>SHARES or video views!

HELL NO!

Just me being ME!

Thoughtful, KIND and truly HONEST!

ON ANOTHER NOTE I SHALL BRAG!

These are SUB ZERO refrigerator doors that my SON has made from wood and resin.

They were custom built for a home in Las Vegas.

To say I am PROUD is an UNDERSTATEMENT!

I think he should get a PATENT on these!

What do you SAY?

I have mentioned this BEFORE and I NEED to mention it AGAIN!

This hurts my eyes and I CRINGE upon seeing her BUTT CRACK.

We can come up with a myriad of excuses but really people this is

NOT THE WAY TO TROT AROUND TOWN!

A) Headed to the gym?

B) Flew off the bed?

C)Comfort is priority?

ALL I want to say here is COVER THE BUTT with a long t-shirt or sweater……….this is not an APPEALING LOOK for ANYONE at ANY AGE!

EVEN if you are skinny.

Very few people can carry this look off and unfortunately this LOOK IS EVERYWHERE!

I always think DO THEY KNOW HOW BAD THEY LOOK FROM THE BACK?

I am always tempted to snap a photo and TAP their shoulder to SHOW THEM!

I do Believe some people are CLUELESS and most legging material is completely SEE THROUGH.

Another observation I made that day was EVERYONE was in BLACK or GRAY.IT’s SPRING PEOPLE and the SUN was out.Let’s not dress like we are going to a funeral.The weather itself has been depressing enough.

Now that I have spoken out on all the above lets look at my POOP PILE!

OPPS, I mean COMPOST PILE……

IT EVENS HAS A DASH OF COLOR!

Our COMPOST PILE.

Kitchen and garden debris goes here……….

Which then makes WONDERFUL DIRT TO TOP OFF OUR GARDEN BEDS.

More on the garden when we get the weather we need.Until then those of you who follow me on my HEALTH SAGA this is the latest!

The CURE for FND was the CALM APP and a PSYCHOTHERAPIST.

I did the CALM APP for a 7 day trial meditation.

I was totally AGAINST IT.For me I feel this is not the answer.

For YOU….. MAYBE!

I get that some of you need the music, the reminder to relax and not let other things creep into your mind!I found by doing meditation for 10 minutes a day I have a very shallow breath, which I already knew.Due to the MAC LUNG DISEASE or another name NON-TUBERCULOSIS BACTERIUM.It has left SCARS ON MY LUNGS.I will ALWAYS breath with an effort!

I have ZERO THOUGHTS during the meditation.

NO WANDERING THOUGHTS EVER!

I do as I am told.I do not think about what I have to do later in the day or tomorrow.I sit and concentrate on my breath.

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?NO WANDERING THOUGHTS………

PLEASE GIVE ME YOUR INPUT and if there is a meditation person out there please SHARE YOUR THOUGHTS in the comments below!

THERAPIST REPORT:

To date I have spoken with THREE psychotherapists.

One had NEVER heard of FND.

ONE wanted to CURE me with MY DREAMS.

The last actually has worked with STANFORD and knows two doctors who I may benefit from speaking with.He was kind and listened and seemed to understand where I was coming from.I have yet to receive his BILL.He was to email a couple of people.One of which is my NUEROLOGIST.Guess what I can NOT get an EMAIL from KAISER for my Nuerologist!

I KID YOU NOT!CAN YOU HEAR MY ANGER?

One morning I left 18 MESSAGES.

REFERRED THERAPISTS to me from KAISER Neurology.

Supposedly,they had training in FUNCTIONAL NEUROLOGICAL DISORDER.

(I made it through less than half the list at 18.)

TWO CALLED BACK that same day.More called later in the week and because it was not a WORKMANS COMP they are not interested!Two of the therapists phone lines were out of service.One therapist was incredibly rude to me.I feel I need to UPDATE the KAISER LIST for OUTSIDE HELP as they should not be giving out information that is a time SUCK and a WILD GOOSE CHASE.

I am waiting on my NUEROLOGIST to get back to me as far as REFERRALS to Mayo Clinic and UCSF.

I have had six EPISODES this month already!

Remember they are weening me off the ANTI-SEIZURE medications which I take twice a day total of 4 pills a day.I soon will be entering week four.Headaches are coming and IRRITABILITY is sky high!

MY POOR ITALIAN IS NOT GETTING THE BEST OUT OF ME DURING THIS SCENARIO!

WE HAVE A FEW MORE WEEKS TO GO!

Let me share an EPISODE with you:

I had a normal day.Finished dinner with the ITALIAN who by the way has asked me for years what I am thinking about as I look out a BIG PANED WINDOW into the garden at dinner time…..After catching up on our tales of our days checking in with each other on who heard from whom etc.He likes to ASK ME WHAT I AM THINKING ABOUT……………..

My answer has always been “NOTHING”.

I am completely relaxed as the dinner prep is done and the Italian clears the table and loads the dishwasher.I leave the PANS FOR DOMANI or Tomorrow in English as I am too tired by 7:30 pm.Sound pathetic?It is but there is nothing I can do about it.

I sit next to him on the sofa for some television time.Feet up head resting on a pillow, blanket over me as I am constantly cold.The next thing I know my eyes are GOING.That means I have lost my vision and everything is a BLUR.NOT BLACK just blurry and this time which was a FIRST I saw DOUBLE images of the screen.During an episode it is hard to keep my eyes open.I try and open one eye ONLY at a time to see if I can see.NO CAN DO!The PAIN STARTS in my forehead and went down through MY FACE to below my NOSTRILS!That too was a FIRST!Normally the pain remains in the upper head region.I then close MY EYES and put my hand over them to make it even darker…………….I WAIT and WAIT.About five minutes later I try to open my eyes.They do not want to OPEN I keep TRYING.After 10 minutes I can see again the TV.Now during this time I am not thinking about any stress.I have my husband next to me holding my hand.Many times I have asked him to look at my pupils to see if he can see ANYTHING HAPPENING!It’s the same answer each time “NOTHING”!

The headache lasts the rest of the night.

I FEEL LIKE A TRUCK HAS HIT ME.

SO, for the last THREE YEARS I have been on medication to help stop these EPISODES.

They have NEVER STOPPED.

In fact they have accelerated in the past YEAR!

Now that I am going OFF the meds the episodes are coming MORE frequently.

That is enough PONDERING on this for NOW!

I ADORE ALL OF YOU WHO CHIME IN WITH LINKS,YOUR STORIES AND SUGGESTIONS!

JUST KNOW I AM FOLLOWING UP ON ALL OF IT!

TO CHIME IN OR ADD FOOD FOR THOUGHT KEEP SCROLLING DOWNWARDS………

YOU are MY MEDICATION!

I WOULD BE GOING OUT OF MY MIND IF I DIDNOT HAVE YOU ALL HERE SHARING.

XXX